Today went to CITS (computer room) during my 2 hours break to CHECK MY EMAIL before next lesson begin.
It's supposed to be CHECK MY EMAIL ONLY because i knew i needed to study if not i wouldn't have time to do what i shld since weekend got youth alpha retreat.

Before i knew it , it was several tabs opened on my window bar.
Tadah!.. lost in the cyber lala land.

Just as i found 1 website like quite interesting, about to press the links on the website,
my screen went black.
All the computer screens in CITS went black too.
There was a short circuit.
everyone was *#&%&$&#**$)%%!! (not vulgarity definitely, just erm... pekchek)
I sit back stare at the black screen, look at the time that has passed.
Gosh i wasted an hour doing practically NOTHING and i couldn't remb that 'interesting' website's url!

after i'm reminded that i did not spent my time fruitfully for the past one hour,
wah my efficiency in studying increased to an unprecedented level and it was so fruitful for the next remaining 50 minutes.

Thank God man for the short circuit even if it was a coincidence.
It did bring me back to reality from lala-land.
i can't always expect a short circuit each time i couldn't exercise discipline.
But I was super CONVICTED today..

Be focused la!!

If i can't ask for more time a day.. to do the things i'm supposed to do
then i will ask God for increased effectiveness.

If i can't ask for more time a day.. to study
then i will ask God for a more focused mind despite so many distractions.

If i can't ask for more time.. to sleep
I will ask God to give me the discipline to sleep early

If i can't ask for more time a day.. to spend time with my family and friends
then i will ask God for love from my family and friends to not hold it against me.

If i can't ask for more time a day.. to go for parties/outings/shopping/obligations
then i will ask God to grant me wisdom for me to say NO to people when i really dun have much time

All the above seems so important but...i find that i really seldom ask for more time a day to.. read and meditate on God's word.

..because i know i have the time but i dun.


If only i would read your word with the same kind of intensity i would mug for exams man, i tell you ar..... (exclusive of the grumbling part la )

Lord forgive me when i read your word with a 'routinised attitude'.
God, grant me the hunger to read your word by reminding of ur love for me.

BALLOONS! <3

i realized it's been a long time since i put $ inside that mission 'tonglei gong' due in november.
A few thoughts struck my mind immediately.
I dun even have discipline to save up for myself, basically just spend whatever i am given, isn't it more difficult to save up on 'tonglei gong'?
then another thought... wah put $ in 'tongli gong' weekly, will also give church offertory weekly leh.
Here give there give (though u know the reason for giving), really not much left to spend.
So if i really save up for that 'tonglei gong' on a weekly basis, i will feel very 'dui' not saving anything for myself and the contrast will be even more obvious in november. How much potential $ i could have save if i had been more disciplined FOR MYSELF, not just 'tonglei gong'? 'tonglei gong' is more obvious in contrasting that kind of
'dui-ness' coz u dun accumulate offertory and give them at one shot to the church.

So from now on, i have decided to save up money for myself and 'tonglei gong' on a weekly basis.
So actually because of 'tonglei gong' i will in fact become richer. YEAH!

Then i remb i almost forgotten the significance of the 'tonglei gong' alr.
Ya it's for the bro/sis in Khon Kaen who are deprived of an education which i took mine for granted since i complain so often about NTU.
Maybe i should stick a picture of a khon kaen kid looking at me on 'tonglei gong' so that it has the effect of reminding me the significance of the 'gong' and a good reminder that i need to cherish my education.
Not everybody has a chance to study.


another thing that bites,
yah a miser will always remain 'miser'able.

Today saw my sec school fren.
Well my impression of her in sec school, she's like so into those anime and online stuff.
When she told me her CCA is ELDERS, i was like woah.
Firstly woah coz i never hear before.
On second thought woah coz she's doing social work for the elderly.
ELDERLY ELDERLY ELDERLY ELDERLY ELDERLY
so cool a cca JUST FOR THEIR WELFARE.
if i'm not in campus crusade i might just join because it's really meaningful doing social work and building relationship.
Read so much about the need to help weak and poor in bible but never really practised it in practical sense.

hmmmm...think i'm too preoccupied with my own thoughts that's why.
When u start to pray for others or show geniuine concern for others, your own 'problems' seems to shrink in size dramatically. Clinicially Proven many times.

I just wanna say
Thank you abbbba FATHER in heaven ;)

just woke up after a 14 hrs plus of sleep--equivalent to number of hours i clocked in for 2 days of sleep.

But no joke man sleeping with both nose blocked.
Lucky God already pre-emt that when he created us.
he created an alternative,
that i can sleep while breathing through my mouth as well.
but halfway through my sleep , phlegm started to accumulate in my throat.
sian~~!@#@!$#$$
what other ways to breathe?
For that gasp of air, you would have given up everything on earth to survive and any worries u have doesn't matter anymore or just pales in comparison.

To be able to breathe freely is such a blessing man!
just wanna scream :
Thank God i felt super uber refreshed!
Little discomforts/illness/sickness can be a blessing in disguise.
It teaches you or gives you opportunity to rest properly.

I heard you say that no one seems to care 'bout you
It's in your eyes, you think that life's unfair to you
Just give it all you got, my friend
Just give it all you got, it's not the end
Cause you oughta know
There's a reason for these changin' seasons
God only knows how much your heart can bear
So don't you let go
Everybody has their up and down times
Everybody needs to know how much they're loved
My friend
So hold on, it's not the end
As I remember everything you touch
Would turn to gold
You have the secrets
To make your grandest dreams unfold
You are the very best of us all
But the sun that rises still falls
Cause you oughta know
There's a reason for these changin' seasons
God only knows how much your heart can bear
So don't you let go
Everybody has their up and down times
Everybody needs to know how much they're loved
My friend
So hold on, it's not the end
It's just a love song
'Cause everybody needs a friend
I'll be right here for you
It's just a simple prayer
It's from the bottom of my heart
That He'll never let you go
'Cause you oughta know
There's a reason for these changin' seasons
God only knows how much your heart can bear
So don't you let go
Everybody has their up and down times
Everybody needs to know how much they're loved
My friend
So hold on, it's not the end

today was a blast!
didn't know getting married would be SOOOO tiring..
lucky u just need to marry once. Any more times, that's u really ask for it (trouble).

never actually felt close to my sister only until she gets married AWAY today. ironic.
For the past 21 years, this is definitely the day that i know her SO MUCH BETTER.
In terms of her way of doing things, handling stress and her opinions about certain issues.
Hmm, My sis has never been to church for like donkey years? My only memory is when my dad 'force' her to go and she slept through the whole sermon. From then there's like no relationship of church and her. So when today when she give her speech to give thanks in front at the wedding dinner, the last part..' most importantly i wanna thank God for all'. Simple words but it takes courage for her to say it out especially saying that beside her non-christian spouse. I guess it's not easy even for 'seasoned' christians to just thank God in front of non-christians. And i dun mean the casual 'oh my God' or 'thank God' that tom, dick , harry can say without thinking. i think when u mean it, people can feel it too. Holy spirit convicts ;)

unable to sleep one night. turn and tossed
and i flip through the bible and saw this verse
' In vain you rise early
and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat—
for he grants sleep to those he loves. ' Psalm 127:2

Focusing on the last part, i 'bhb-ly' sleep well thru the night because i was so convicted God loves me. ;)
God's love, That's the only thing i can proudly boast of.
Anything more to boast except from GOD, then i'm asking for it (trouble)!

it's been a long time since i 'mass-stalk' people's blogs.
Reading people's blogs, well allow u to understand others better, especially with people whom u dun talk much with?
Realized many links to their blogs seemed to be obsolete, password-protected ,locked or covered in cobwebs.
like out of 10 blogs, almost half cannot access. sian
why so secretive?
err then i realized 'crunch-me' wasn't any better.

Acer is back after 1 month of service (note: keypad)
but i really had my hats off ACER.
Within the same day i got it back,


Argghhh!










coincidentally my lift also has the same problem,somemore it's at the level where i lived, 6th floor.

haha guess I have to explain to my brother-in-law that i didn't purposely spoil the button lift.
Let's hope tmr he can come up smoothly for the gate-crash without electric shock.




well..how long more?
ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH