Back from metamorphosis camp,

One thing that struck me greatly was the Street Evangelism. I always limit Street E to just Street E, well i think God really help me to fine-tune that and opened up my eyes.

We were having street E.
Est and i were walking to this ulu void deck in commonwealth when we saw this 50 plus woman sitting alone. We went to approach her and intro ourselves. This woman knowing our intention to evangelise told us she's already a christian. But we still chatted a little while and find out some stuff,

She don't stay in commonwealth,in fact she took a bus having a large detour to this place which she never come before and sit at this void deck to 'stone', like a retreat away from home.
She shared that she has to take care of her sick husband at home, which she feel weary.
She is always the one who show concern for other people around but people don't really ask about her. She said that she prayed that there will be people to encourage her becoz she feels like giving up but at the same time she can't coz she knows her family members (all prebelievers) will see her as a testimony of her faith so she has to persevere.

We prayed for her and she keep thanking us repeatedly, and i really think even though what we could do was limited, just a short prayer and a listening ear to her ramble of all her frustration and weariness. But can see she really have heartfelt thanks for God at that time when she was feeling low by sending people to encourage her and that answer her prayers, when actually est and me really anyhow walk without any destination in point then spotted her.
The next day she text me and est, thanking us and calling us angels whom passed by.
I also thank God for bringing her to us.

I'm usually skeptical when people readily receive christ. But sometimes the harvest may really just be ready for u to go one step further to assist them to declare their faith as the seeds were sown long time and it's just time for harvest. Two Ah ma were sitting at the void deck, both of them said they aren't christians but their kids are and they brought them to church. They also know jesus is good and stuff but they have their own gods. But when est ask them if they wanna receive Christ, they weren't resistent to it at all. One ah ma commented, "but i dunno how to receive christ, i dunno how to read or say angmoh'. then we go thru the sinners' prayer with them the chinese version and they repeated after us.

They keep thanking us again after that and i ask one ah ma to tell her son she alr accepted christ,go church and don't worship any more other gods already because there's only one real God- Jesus Christ. She nod her head and thank us again.

Before this two ah mas , we have approached 3 ah mas and 1 ah gong who said their kids were also christians but they strongly refused to be christians due to their own gods they have been worshipping for XX years and was furious when we want to tell them about jesus.

My skepticism really decreases ALOT when i met the last 2 ah mas who accepted christ so readily.

Then we met one guy who was on his way home.. who was a christian when he was a teen but backslided when he was sentenced to 10-years imprisonment as he took drugs.He was bitter, jobless, divorced, and even his own son applied for Protection Order so that he cannot come near them when he went to visit his son. He ask us if God really loves him, where is He when he needed Him..
My heart really sink, sank sunk when someone so hurt keep questioning if God really loves him...
U can't outwin him in debates so the best way to end it off is prayer.
Surprisingly, he readily wanted the prayer.
Like despite of so much accuses he had for God, deeply inside u can feel he still desperately wanted to go back to God again.
Dunno how is he now and i doubt i will ever see him again, as he doesn't even have a phone but pray that the lord will continue to speak to him as he opens up his heart for healing to take place.

There's always this thought when u go out for street E: when u have to choose and eliminate people to speak to (evanglise) due to limited time constraint. Deep down, I know if I can I will gladly just use a loudhailer to proclaim the good news to EVERYONE, but of course it doesn't work this way and will definitely backfire.Street E doesn't stop here, it continues even when i'm 'off-duty'

If priority is not wrong i guess this will remind me,
We are christians working undercover as students not students who happen to be christians.

2009 is going to be over. It was a tough year i must say.
But i'm really thankful for God and His people who are great encouragers & challengers.

Psalm 40:5 Many, O LORD my God,
are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us
no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of them,
they would be too many to declare.

sidetrack a bit results are out,
phew thank God..LEVEL CLEARED! :)

Happy 2010!
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Janice and her partner durning street E...

Jan's partner: what new year resolution do you have for 2010?
Thin Guy: slim down
Jan's partner: huh why? but u are already very slim
Thin Guy look up and down at jan's partner: well different people different expectations.

If u really care for the person and want to know his/her secret, not simply for kaypo's sake.
I guess even right now the secret should be well-guarded and not spreading around.
Not refering to those secrets like 'i just murdered somebody' or 'i took drugs dunno what to do now' which definitely needs immediate attention.
But those seemingly trivial stuff u know can have a negative impact which doesn't eddify when spread around w/o the person's consent simply all in the name of fun.
If one can't even keep others' secret, what's this thing about self-control or even trust

PUI..

merry christmas.
got so much things to update, dunno where to start from but yep i'm back from youth camp and khon kaen!

great people great food great reminders great encounters great love experienced
from simple events and things.


Some quotes/reminders here & there..
"we are little but we have great visions for the people here"--Aunty WK
"don't ask how we can gain access to the prisons,rehab,slums... God opens the way"
--Aunty WK
"don't pray that programs will run smoothly but rather our faith will be strengthen through all these"--Jere & Zing
"be ready for unexpected situations. what if pauline or jeremiah is not here..." --Jun
"God isn't for efficiency like how singaporeans pride themselves on but efficacy"--Jere
"they are just like normal kids who yearn for love" --Aussie refering to the HIV-positive kids
"I will be obedient to God"-- written by Evan the missionary at the back of his bible in his secondary school days

poor memory.. cannot remember exactly what they said but roughly the gist is there. I probably forgotten alot more which i wanted to add in as precious reminders i want to hold on to...

Not to forget those images..

-the airplane view of agriculture fields (size of legos) which reminds me of God's faithfulness & his love for so many people from other ends of the earth which i do not know of and reminds me of Pastor Glen's sermon of the macro-ness of his creation and micro-ness of us.
-slums which i didn't realize are slums. i seriously thought they are just shelters
-the little gal from slum who hold on to the NERDS sweet which i pour out in her dirty palm tightly,eating only one at a time,savouring it slowly.
-the beautiful & big field with cow dung embedded here and there(the harvest are plenty but the workers are few)
-the australian who give the HIV positive kid a great big nice HUG, one of the warmest hug i've seen (not the patronising kind)
-those rough, uncouth and tatooed prisoners who stood up to receive Christ readily
-thais youth christians praying for us which sounds like tongue. Don't understand them but could clearly felt the Holy Spirit as they prayed as we serve the same God
-those smiles, sawadee :)

i can forget anything but not God's faithfulness!

The inability to communicate your thoughts (my thoughts are messy like the icons on my laptop desktop!) can really be frustrating at times when
people dunno what u are talking about and who can u blame but yourself.

Thankfully at the end of the day, when u are just all alone.
Prayer to God is so at ease because every word can just come right from the bottom of your heart. No prayer template is needed in order to achieve 'effective communication' with God. It doesn't matter at this moment whether my problems are solved anot or still in the pending process. But i know right at this moment just to dwell in His presence is all that's enough.

No worries about sentence structure, grammatical errors or how shallow my worries and thoughts are, just the thought of it is *phew~ enough. :)

YOUTH CAMP TMR..;)
may the good Lord bless each and every single camper.
Good rest everyone!

A Life Revealed--National geographic
Her eyes have captivated the world since she appeared on our cover in 1985. Now we can tell her story.
By Cathy Newman
Photograph by Steve McCurry


Totally besotted with her eyes man.
make me that pair of contact lens!!...

ok that's not the point.

["Time and hardship have erased her youth. Her skin looks like leather. The geometry of her jaw has softened. The eyes still glare; that has not softened. "She's had a hard life," said McCurry.So many here share her story." Consider the numbers. Twenty-three years of war, 1.5 million killed, 3.5 million refugees: This is the story of Afghanistan in the past quarter century.

Now, consider this photograph of a young girl with sea green eyes. Her eyes challenge ours. Most of all, they disturb. We cannot turn away.

... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Such knife-thin odds. That she would be alive. That she could be found. That she could endure such loss. Surely, in the face of such bitterness the spirit could atrophy. How, she was asked, had she survived?

The answer came wrapped in unshakable certitude.

"It was," said Sharbat Gula, "the will of God." ]

what's unshakable certitude?
i dunno which God she refering to and most prob not the one that i know of.
But well, think we are TOO BLESSED to just imagine others' hardship when we are so absorbed in ours. Give me their kind of hardship now, i will just breakdown immediately.
But i too want that kind of unshakable certitude when people ask of the God that i know of, not dependent on situations... it's hard but definitely not impossible with that God of ours we know of.

A random post probably due to me having an exam like really soon and i'm still not sleeping..and i'm not exactly mugging coz my laptop is in front!


today i saw many 'safari-themed' clothes after mugging.
quite sensitive to all the stripes and animal printed apparels.
It just reminds me of THANKSGIVING THANKSGIVING THANKSGIVING!
jan still ask me dress up as a zoo-keeper when i told her the theme, but i still dun quite get it.. what's the link between zoo-keeper & safari?
Then i realize ya there's a link if it's NIGHT SAFARI!

bonitochico didn't send me any mail, i was just a few minutes late and my platform shoes are gone!..& backorders will be too late
but how to rush when u are buying stuff online?
but still better than choosing module in NTU.. u really need to 'F5' non-stop
and the system will hang.

And i hate chemistry but i got to love it man.
Be of good stewards of whatever i'm given and i got no reason to complain-
Well i CHOOSE it three years back.

my last paper will be on friday morning.. my fren was still happily talking abt the plans after exams but i just.... Guess mission trip still left alot stuff undone, actually should be ALOT stuff not done yet. just the thought of it seems overwhelming because DEAD-line is just SO near and youth camp is just next week.

But think will enjoy planning with the mission team anyway since all of them i'm quite comfortable with and they are so funny. So no worries and ask for Lord's guidance.

things left undone that requires IMMEDIATE action this dec:

1)cut & dye hair
2)change phone, anything just to replace that army phone i'm having now
3)mission plan draft 2 for aunty wai kheng to see
4)clean up my room
5)watch my recorded shows in smartTV left rotting for eons
6)prepare cell word for this sun
7)movies,shopping,on-line dramas,buffets,exercise (weird to place buffet&exercise side by side but wells...)
8)meet-ups & stayovers!(ma-mui is back!)

Well 3am now le! i got a paper @ 9am.
I'm like dead tired and HYPER now! .. can like jog around 10 rounds NTU
ya in my dreams
Alright God Bless little miss eye-bag!

PS: i gotta adjust the time shown in blog, it's just not accurate ..

when i say this taiwanese singer is worth my attention,
i am like really assured i don't judge someone by his/her look!



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"I believe in the sun even when it's not shining
I believe in love where feeling is not.
I believe in God even if he is silent."

-Inscription on the walls of a cellar in Cologne, Germany,
where Jews hid from the Nazis