Christmas is over
yet it didn't felt like christmas.
haha hear this from so many people

haha me tooooo
but come to think of it , what will make christmas 'christmasy'?

hmmmm...
carols?
greetings?
presents?
snowflakes?
logcakes?
turkey?
frenz?
lightings?
christmas tree?
whole day in church?
family celebrating togt?
ur love one with u?

When u are younger , a simple logcake/family gathering/cheapo present would suffice
As my age catches on,
all these becomes clearer
something deeper is lacking.

Afterall Christmas is still about Christ..
Being so preoccupied with the planning for event and meeting people these days , I forgot to reflect deeper or choose to ignore taking some SOLID time to really think and give thanks and some action steps to take ( not just physical action but the renewal of some thoughts to surrender, hardest part)

A blog post to u:
Thanks for sending Jesus to be the ultimate expression of love so that we know how to love and care for others.
Thanks for giving us the best gift-salvation for anyone that believes when no one deserve it.
Thanks for forgiving me. You know all the dumbest things i do.
Thanks for ur patience & grace. you know i delayed doing things that i know would have pleased you but becoz of self-interest/pride i did not do what i ought to. Yet u are willing to mould me to be the person you hope i will be.
Thanks for ur wonderful plans for me when i know nuts about it. Your faithfulness & promises.
Thanks for all ur teachings, advices and reminders thru the bible, from others and in prayers.
Thanks for ur company- the Holy Spirit to help us in our weakness and to even intercede for us.
Thanks for every single nitty gritty details /SUPER ULTRA BIG plans that i've overlooked/do not have the wisdom to comprehend.
Thanks for being my strength , my refuge, my listening ear.
Thanks for giving me rest.
Thanks for giving me an identity that I'm proud to be
Thanks for being there all the time.
Thanks for all the blessings u have given.
Thanks for all the people u have placed in my life-every single one.
Thanks for loving me when i'm so unloveable.

Thanks for not just of what you've done but who you actually are.

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So tired i can finally have a good rest:)
retreat!

Off to truly asia...

Happily tired.
And learnt some lessons here and there, ups and downs
But blessed to have people help me physically and emotional support!

RAR
AWESOME!
Thank God for everything and everyone.
May i not be kan cheong but know u are in control definitely.

Subscribed to Fuda's 'devotion' email from a far far land..
machiam like Paul(Fuda) writing letter(email) to the church(crusaders)so cool experiencing God's miracles and healing on other people from a first-hand encounter.
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Like this part:
"When we receive compliments, it’s like receiving a stalk of flower. At the end of the day, after receiving all the thanks and compliments, we would have a whole bunch of flowers to offer to God."

Lastly,
All the best for exams MMMW!!!
FIGHT IT ON! :)

:(

jiayou
qc

These few months i must really press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on press on


Thanks for everything my Heavenly Father every single little thing.

helping me to find a good fyp prof, helpful frens, helping me to learn humility once more,helping me to work with others, helping me to find my iphone , ic which i have lost and get back (not again!) from random people and all, helping me to learn from my fall and all , giving me grace for my mistakes , sending people to encourage and guide me, giving me such a cute nephew, showing me that He can be depend on even when i'm super duper stress now, giving me His Word that encourages , eternal promises He has given, giving me a glimpse of 0.00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001% insight of His creation which He has let me study on (chemistry) and be totally amazed by the uniqueness of creation and the micro details of it that's killing me also haha.

ATOMS MOLECULES DNA BLAH BLAH BLAH ..
It's definitely takes more than a genius to create all THESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hai.
hai.
hai.

Not much time left.. Even my 'stoning' time has to be fast.

Looking back..it's really not so much of whether if I do or don't do a particular thing or action at that particular point in time, but rather how God helps me to see things in a different perspective that I would never expect

haiyo in conclusion, A poisoned mind sets itself captive.. it's a continuous process and willing effort for mind to be continually renewed by the Holy Spirit
Must nv forget that.

I started off the semester well but
wah if this semester is like a 42.195km marathon, so far I only reached 10km jialat and I'm already out of stamina
Replenish meeee!
Chiong arrrrr! :)

4 months of holidays passes quickly.
First day of school tmr.. Feels excited like a p1 student:)
I had better be humble man, stop talking and give my undivided attention to the profs
no more ponning of lessons. Learn the hard way.


Masterlife and chemistry notes shall be my best bud for this week!

:)

Alright back to counting sheep.

Really feel like shit now .. Emo x infinity
I can't even focus during work.
But I got to be strong.. God will help me through this difficult period like He always does.

One day I will look back and thank God again for what He has taught me.

Qc jiayou

24 hours more till I see rainbowwww!!!
:):):):):)

Such a bad day...
It's so rare that I can write a consecutive 2 days bad post
tmr will b better....I hope
Pleaaaaasssssseeee

it's not even 10pm and I'm super duper tired
no energy
want to talk to somebody but the whole world is busy as well
ohwells

Felt quite upset with myself today...
I was bored and lazy...
Very bored but too lazy to do anything
getting out of house is alr a chore
getting out of house and not doing much drains me even more

so I flared up again
hai
sian

tmr will be better I prayed..:x

I hope the customers tmr who called will be kind and the technicians will fix the spoiled items once and for all
I hope the technician has contacted the owner with the spoiled LG fridge and stop calling me. LG really kills me man. Life is not good for the cust and me that's for sure
I hope my Muslim colleagues will stop asking what I'm eating when I'm eating Meepok coz Pork rocks!:)
I hope I can find my sec sch diary's keys, apparently I hid them too well till I myself can't find them
I hope I can persevere what I'm suppose to do , secret for now
I hope I too can be kind to the people around me, I pms too often. I don't want to get beaten up someday

yea I thank God I know God, or rather u know me too well.

GV 17 Group MTV presentation last part..Poor resolution due to compression
a short 4 mins out of the half an hour we had to present..
lucky it's the special semester.. if not it will be super shiong with so many modules!



love the throw shoe to lift part.. NG so many times but funny nonetheless:)

Venue: NTU, Jurong East MRT platform




and well ....STUDYYYY!!

NTU will soon become a zoo soon with all the wiring fence it has , just becoz it is the resting ground for Youth Olympics participants. It's either we looked like the caged animals from the inside or ....another way round. Understand the 'security reasons', but it's becoming more inconvenient to walk from place to place nowadays because harder to jay-walk now! erm.. not just jay-walk but i mean MORE of taking short cuts :x

Wah today's presentation was CRAZY but entertaining.
Crazy in a sense i could have lost alot marks but entertaining becoz i
sacrificed to entertain others -.-
demoralized big time during the singing with the anti-climax i make when it's supposed to be a climax as i was suppressing my laughter inside and out of breath becoz of the 'special item' before that
Gek kiang jiu hao... sing jiu sing properly dun do stupid stuff. sigh regrets
wasted!..but i must really say we did have FUN! :)




My class "Ill" Divo
haha they are awesome man!









Withdrawal symptoms hits again, u better come back soon! :(
I've got so much to tell u..

Both my exam papers are next wed.
I've better START studying. my goodness. sian. dun be affected
PRO-crastinator!

:) Jiayou Crunchy

Been busy these few nights till late.

Did a survey/interview job @ Khatib 8 hours over 2 days and earn quite a bit.
I guess the main gist is the exposure and fun of it.

Got this bachelor and this lady within the same block has similar kind of interests and way of talking. I feel like matchmaking or just tell them they could be potential best friends within the same block! ya many times if the barrier between humans is broken down, you could have make many potential frens with ur neighbours:) Your best fren could be staying just upstairs if u bother talking to them!

One of the elderly residents i interviewed has cancer and she was living alone.
She was so hospitable that she immediately open her house to let me in which I of coz can't. (Reminds me of the verse of letting Christ in when He knocks on the door of ur heart, though i'm not Christ :x) But i had a great time chatting with her and i guess it was also rare for people to knock on her door to chat with her besides from salesmen or insurance agents, with no 'ulterior motives'. Of course i too have a hidden agenda and that is to complete my survey to get my money! haha but i enjoyed the conversation that for a moment of time din really bother to be so task-oriented.

Of course there are some fierce one that just slams door. I even write down in my record of the residents with 'very fierce' and 'very very fierce' comments! lol
I realize the potential of Christ's ministry in whatever marketplace jobs that i held in the future. It further convicts me of some stuffs.
Constants and variables that we learn in secondary school of a math equation for algebra applies similarly in life.
Perhaps maths is not THAT useless after all as it gives u a better concept of what constant (convictions, faith, principles and values) and variables (trials, circumstances and others' reaction) are in a fixed equation (LIFE).
Hmmm... trying to console myself that afterall i din waste my time under MOE for so long as well. :X

Yesterday practiced singing in sch till almost 10pm after my lesson with my group members. Have so much fun, sing-crap , nonsense and serious stuff LOL
Going to have my first solo singing presentation that's graded in a few hours time.
So excited! hope i dun forget the lyrics~~ ^^
Love this module (GV17)
NTU should have more of these!!!


Tour guide who scold tourists for not spending much stuffs as they pay cheap tours , my goodness!!!

it is by grace you have come so far.
not because u are any better or deserves to.

All has a different destiny to fulfill yet so uniquely important.
The potential of each depends on how willing we are to adhere
, trust, obey and love Him.

As each stage is cleared, the difficulty level seems harder and harder,
but ultimately it is back to the basics again : Seek ye first

IL DIVO!!





searching, listening to the great passion of love
trying to escape from the future
running away from the past
you and I, always in love
today I have nothing if I don't have you
my heart extinguishes itself
Isabel I'll always love you
Isabel where will you go without me?
I could not live without you (x2)

Flying, falling down on pain
playing, losing empires of illusion
today I have nothing if I don't have you
my heart extinguishes itself
Isabel if you go away
your God will get angry
don't let this love to die this way
I will cry, you will cry
suffering in seclusion
come back to me and
I will make you happy, Isabel

I found a new hobby and that is to irritate my nephew Aven!!... at least for the time being haha.. He looks really tan after the tanning session, I'm crazy over him now!!! He's so HOT AWWWWWwwwwww....






Sian now only left with FYP.. gotta find a kind-hearted professor to 'adopt' me now.
Really dunno what to do sia..Felt so stranded man.. really need ur guidance my GOD help me!! Please drop a prof from the sky that doesn't just look at GPA before deciding to take me in coz my GPA really CMI. ARGHHHHH...
And christmas programme.. my mind is in a blank now~~.. pray for inspiration
and lastly special semester starts on mon hope i really have the mood to study...
oh aven i miss youuuuuu, u are such a distraction... and u disturb my sleep as well but i know i will miss you when u go home in less than a month's time. Sobz~~

Thanks matt as well for increasing ur tolerance for tandrums. well always remb blame it on pms okayss not my fault arr haha.

Lastly Lord increase my desire in your Word,
really very lazy i know...
wasting my time day by day
doing nothingS as well.

But well u really opened my eyes during the mission trip.
It spoke to me personally that i can't pen it down but i know deep down.
Thanks!
HAPPY FATHERS' DAY to my heavenly and earthly father as well!

Drusilla just sms me to wish me a Happy Fathers' Day
oh wells. -.-
it gotta be 'beatitudes'
haha

nice lyrics corrinne may's song during the camp :)
one of my fav christian singer!

Sometimes i wonder what lies ahead
How long til my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
so many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and i try to pray
in the silence i can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like that i'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
why i should give up
But i'm stubborn in the things i believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to the patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One i still cant see
A little surprise, like your love in your life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to the patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

I'm flying off in 9 hours time...
Whether i'm ready or not, the plane is still going to fly.


BABY AVEN!
stop crying...
good boy!

BABY MATTHIAS!!
stop dotaing...
good boy!

haha.
-.-

See my results really very sian.
It didn't help that the weather was so hot that it almost melted me.
But thank God for the people u have placed around to remind me of ur grace and mercy to sustain me thus far.

It could have been worse.
Thank God for a God like u.

It was a painful 'pride' lesson for me to learn through these uni years.
It will surely shape and mould me.
But at least i learn abeit a bit later.


a bittersweet smile.

I like my mission team and we are more bonded now but... sometimes ... the meetings are really.....a bittttt tooooooooooo looooooonnnnggggg :X







But today's meeting was REALLY worth the delay.
Cambodian Missionary Pastor Sharon came and share the culture (quite similar to Thai),history (HORRENDOUS),her experience and most importantly her burdens and prayers for this country. Great to know another faithful and warmth missionary who has a heart for the lost

Thank God & His people for Supporting Raising!

Namely:
Uncle Larry ( my very first Supporter to pledge in CCR! ^^)
Karen
Yu Qiang
Pauline
Chong How
Jessie
Jeremiah

Contributed to My Pirated Tong Lei Gong:
Uncle Victor
Gary
Charmaine
Aunty Maureen

A total of $1460 was raised :) when i only needed $950 within a week!
the excess was given to my team and 2 other peeps from other mission teams
who were still lacking.
Thanks all who supported mission.
Prayer Newsletter will be done soon :)

nice

Today was really a bad day when i woke up.
Felt very grouchy at whatever that comes my way..
I kept complaining in my heart.
Even a seemingly insignificant thing like waiting for the train to arrive
also piss me off when 1 minute feels like forever.
PMS! (when u dunno what is affecting u , just blame it on PMS!)

One thing leads to another.
Complain about 1 thing with that grouchy heart breeding, u will complain about a zillion stuffs.
Even the seminar today about intercession also seems exceedingly long.
At the end there's one feedback survey given to us i also give a less than average rating compared to the other seminars on other days.
SO MEAN hahaa (only today, i'm usually kind)
Then suddenly i realized my mind is really poisoned.

SCARY.
it's scary when u witness YOUR OWN worst side.
Because we are so used to witnessing other people's worst side.
Complacency creeps in when we think we wouldn't be like them

Repented immediately man when the worship song came.
then the worship leader say focus on Jesus.
It came so apt at that time.
Think my mind was preoccupied with lots of stuff.
Then i closed my eyes with the worship song playing,
and Jesus as the MTV male lead going around preaching and administering to others, and the cruxifixion.
Wah that image is powerful.
Those poisons in my heart was removed like instantly.

Jesus my MTV male lead
Thanks
:)

After so many changes the mission trip destination will be Cambodia.
To say the truth felt a bit sian when u hear news of people dropping out of team due to many changes in the trip to Thailand when it was called off.
Coz i was also tempted to make my own plans already.
Don't feel like gg as well .. now is to pray for a heart ready to go like the reason why i wanted to go in the first place.

Saw sixiao my pri sch friend yesterday at Pasir Ris interchange.
so i catch up quickly with her.
She's born in HK, currently staying in singapore alone as her family is in HK
She's intending to go back to HK after her degree in NUS.

Sounds familiar the family background.
ESTHER CHENG
Then i told her i got a fren in a situation like hers as well.
Turn out they know each other as they are in the same DG in Campus Crusade.
What a small world after all.

Yesterday i asked matt to bring me to witness the 'beauty' of DOTA in lan shop.
Seriously it's just
hideous monsters as avatar with horror-movie background music!!...

argghhh.

Relationship dialectics

1) Autonomy/connection- desires to be separate , on the one hand and to be connected, on the other, opposition of which creates tension. Because we want to be deeply linked to others, we cherish spending time with our intimates, sharing experiences and feeling connected. At the same time , each of us needs an independent identity. We don't want relationships to swallow our individuality, so we seek distance, even from our intimates.

2) Novelty/predictability-opposition of the desire for familiar routines and desire for novelty. We like a certain amount of routine to provide security and predictability in
our lives. Yet too much routine is boring so we seek novel experience to introduce variety in customary routine.

3) Openness/closeness-desires for openness in tension with the desire for privacy. While being open and honest is desired, complete openness would be intolerable.

--Communication Mosaics

Exam's over :)
My starhub channels are waiting..Time to catch my 下一站，幸福 dramas!
Catch up with peeps sooooonnnn
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"First of all, you must understand that in the last days, scoffers will come, scoffing and following their evil desires. They will say, "where is this 'coming' he promised? ..." -2 peter 3:3-4

"But do not forget this one thing, dear friends : with the Lord a day is like a thousand years , and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise , as some understands slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish , but everyone to come to repentance"
- 2 Peter 3:8

"Bear in mind that our Lord's patience means salvation, just as our dear brother Paul also wrote you with the wisdom that God gave him...
- 2 Peter 3:15

Therefore dear friends , since u already know this , be on your guard,so that you will not be carried away by the error of lawless men, and fall from your secure position. But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever . Amen.
-2 Peter 3:17-18

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I come before you today
And there's just one thing that I want to say
Thank you Lord,Thank you Lord

For all you've given to me
For all the blessings I can not see
Thank you Lord,Thank you Lord

With a greatful heart, with a song of praise
with an outstreched arm, I will bless your name

Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord

For all you've done in my life
You took my darkness and gave me your light
Thank you Lord,Thank you Lord

You took my sin and my shame,
You took my sickness and healed all my pain
Thank you Lord,Thank you Lord

With a greatful heart, with a song of praise
with an outstreched arm, I will bless your name

Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord ( x infinity)

Not superstitious or what but...
All the best for my last paper tmr!

unprecedented stress.
i can't take it.
save me.

TOTALLY AGREE!
LOL

The Conclusion of the Matter (STUDY WEEK)

Quoting from a fellow mission-tripper who quoted from Ecclesiastes 12:12b ( the book that i always cannot pronounce!),

"Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body..."

sorry it was out of context but i had to agree in reference to the way i spend this week.

i just wanna say "Meaningless! Meaningless!"...haha...

Overheard this conversation:

"boy u must study hard get good results.. get into a good school, if not ur future will be ruined and u will regret"... and i turn to look at him, my gosh he's so young think not even in primary school yet.. :x

the reason why muggers grow at an exponential rate occupying all the seats EVERYWHERE.

SADLY, with me contributing as well haha.
s1an

Psalm 19:12-14
"Who can discern his errors?
Forgive my hidden faults.
Keep yr servant also from willful sins;
may they not rule over me.
Then will I be blameless , innocent of great
transgression.
May the words of my mouth and the mediation of my heart
be pleasing in yr sight,
O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer."

Sorry
My Abba Father

It suddenly became a christian and non-christian fight...
when my grandpa is suffering from a stroke, lying on the deathbed
The tactless comments make by the christian uncle and several taoism,buddhist aunties make things worse.
I can't even bear the scene.

At least it even affect my cousins to suan my uncle @ FB


When anger is blinding you, it's useless to reason out i figure.
What's more important is i know my granddad accepted christ , he will be 100% saved.

Leave the feud to the previous generation.
I dun side with anyone, i dun agree with the approach.

The heart is deceitful , all in the name of filial piety.

Thailand is seriously chaotic got a bad feeling. :(
Revival Thailand!

I bet everyone played broken telephone before ; when 1 message is passed down through N number of people before it reaches you. The message usually is distorted despite the time duration being so short (supposedly retention of the message would be better compared to the message conveyed over several weeks or even months)

Broken Telephone is a super good illustration that humans generally are not very good messengers ( selective listening? biasness? personal judgement involved? poor memory? unable to capture fully the complexity of the message? distort to suits one preference?)

In real life, BROKEN TELEPHONES are everywhere.
somehow all of us played a role in it as well whether we know it or not.
The result can be unimaginable.
It just remind me to exercise discernment when hearing NOT from a first party account.

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Saw Samuel,my p6 tutee playing iphone
Gab: wah, samuel u got iphone ar?
ME: no la mine
Gab: WAAAAAHHHHHH, u got iphone ar?
that's even more shocking.

the -.-" part is the second WAHHHHH is not sarcasm, i could hear it was a geniune WAHHHHH.

DIAO~~

...

MUG!! MUG!! MUG!!...

social skills have come to an all new low.
face notes all day long, was so stressed until i can wake up thinking if i hv time to finish what i'm supposed to study.
Slower reaction time to react to matt's jokes and talk and move around...
and detect a wall??... yes a wall.

I was sms-ing and i din notice this wall was in front of me.
And i banged my head against it.
A BALUKU immediately surfaced. SUPER PAINFUL
Super pai seh because got 1 gal witness the whole scene.
She was trying hard not to laugh.. she really tried her best not to laugh..
and i wanted to laugh at her becoz she was trying hard to suppress her laughter.
2 Laughing Jokers laughing at each other.

but the baluku was so painful that i can't even laugh
I just diao her.
ouchhhh.
BALUKU i hate u.

Today met up with the mission-trip team to Pattaya!
Felt really excited as it's the first time seeing them.
Think we shld be able to clique quite well coz most of them are crazy and easy-going kind from NUS.

I was late from tuition and left only photography and scriber role to choose??
I took photography as i'm not meticulous with writing down stuff for every single significant thing that happen in the trip.
But i seriously hope the pics will not turn out just me zi-pai(ing) myself the whole trip!
haha so tempting..oh well

Yesterday was Good Friday..
Watched the clip again on the crucifixion of Christ.
Can't help but teared madly again though it was just a movie and really really really hard to imagine it was real when u watched so many similar movies with so many special effects and u know they are fake.
The focus was the redemption that took place 2000+ years back
IT WAS REAL ... the humiliation , pain , sacrifice , and the grace and mercy and LOVE.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

One and only Son
I always thought if i REALLY know the significance of that, will i still be living the way i live?

Looking for...
temporary spiritual highs?
head knowledge of the bible?
endless servings?
Fun christian friends?
Comfort,comfort and comfort only from Holy Spirit when u are sad?

or a real desire to know Him and be transformed..:)

I wonder is it just me..
but i can 'tag' a particular song unto each and every single
person that are close to me.

So when i hear a song, it's definitely more than a song ...
..but with memories!

today anastacia asked me : crunchy so how was ur chemistry test?
I was like hmmmmm... ( the usual cui and CMI sigh) but i was like surprised she even remb. Coz i shld be the one asking her how's her test.

anastacia : so can pass anot?
i juz smiled back.

Somehow sensing how i felt , samuel said : Nvm la... at least no matter what u will still have ur uni cert. I got more to worry.. haven't get my PSLE cert yet.

HAHAHAHAA!
stunned, then i just request to pray together with them since we are trapped in this same mad-non-stop-mugging-vicious-i-dun-know-what-am-i-studying cycle

totally like bring me to a whole new perspective.
I totally love this two Pri 6 frens from T2C!
Though u all are really irritating and crappy MOST of the time , u do talk sense OCCASIONALLY!
and i just wanna say i really appreciate and love to meet u all though i have to sacrifice 2 hours of my sleep on every lazy saturday morning.. ~~yawn
hahah muacksss


kids are kids if u treat them as kids.
they are more mature than u perceive.

muffin has been staying over at my house for 1 week.

isit just muffin or do all dogs lick non-stop??
My goodness... it licks NON-STOP and i really meant non-stop and follow me all around till i nearly tripped over her many times.
scaryy..although i've many complaints but think i will still miss her when she's back to her owner.. sad:(

Yesterday was crazy.. never bring key and HANDPHONE when u know u are meeting some people in the later part of the day ! and u cannot remb all their numbers.
almost died.. i guess it is when this kind of situation occurs, then u will start to be innovative and think of ways. It always happen haha. maybe that's how creativity and adaptability came about for me?!
sianz

Having lab now..
Super hungry like crazy.. especially after u smell so much chemicals in the lab. Think i really enjoyed labwork boiling chemicals and stuff, <3 eveything except for the lab report part.
waiting for popo to finish hers before we go for lunch,
yep and meeting matttt after that :)

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Thanks for ur assurance & encouragements.
It really motivates me ALOT
Know i shldn't just depend on a human for all that.
though... it's super addictive :))))))
andddd... "happily ever after" only happens in fairy tale
gals are indeed more emotional
adjusting of expectations are indeed important from time to time

A reminder for me to constantly go back to the main source
running in the right direction.

hope u too:)
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argh busy!
Chemistry kills

As i sang that worship song one year back,
it was from a heart of desperation and a need to seek comfort from God.
But the same song was sang yesterday...
and it became a song of heartfelt thanksgiving and worship for the faithful God who see me through all that has passed...

The road ahead is definitely not a bed of roses.
I may encounter the same situation/problems again
But u are the same Lord yesterday, today and tomorrow
giving me the confidence that u can see me through anything that comes ^v^...

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Recess week Day 1

today's great making crepes @ est's house in faraway Woodlands
but they din turned out crunchy. :(
Hope the rest of the peeps will eat them though

Est's sis look TOTALLY like Est!
another pair of siblings that look so alike
scary!!

and the day passes superrr fast!
Alright gotta pick up the notes now and chiong!
boring & random post
good nite world!

Eileen thanks for it... You've been 'pestering' me to go for Gen12ii for the past month until i'm sooooo irritated. AND i strongly rejected with many many reasons which i believe are genuine reasons.....i still do even now la.. i will still do my special semester but i can't go summer research.. will my lab-work become more chui??
But i know deep down i really dun wanna do labwork :( not even in the near future!!!
Now i know where u are coming from... eileen
i just prayed about it and look thru the schedule again... ( very longgg in fact)

I decided at 1AM Sunday where deadline is just less than 24 hours away
I'm going to THAILAND for gen12ii
but i'm not going 1 month la.. just 10 days :)

Thailand Southern Cross-
where our focus will be the 75,000 chinese tourists in Thailand.
Share the gospel in creative ways in thailand! (in chinese??)
COOL .. i'm sooooo excited...

Now the next task : support raising $$$
My fearful part...
But God provides :)

Gen12ii?? (1 mth)
Summer research ?? (2.5mths)
Special sem ?? (7 weeks)


howhowhow... shld i????

Alright CNY is really BORRRINGGG!
but it's not becoz I'm getting older.

This was how i spent today:
I laid on bed for almost the whole afternoon,
groaning in pain, while the family is out.
:'(

If every month is gg to be this painful,
i'm gg to die!

my cousin used to say "aiya gals only need to endure the pains & discomfort of pregnancy~give u max 9 mths but guys go for suffering in army for approx~ 2yrs"

my goodness, where got people compare like that one??!
If i have 3 kids then i suffered >2yrs rite..and more years to come with crazy kids
ok that's lousy i'm not gg to counter with that

the point is , it's really painful ( at least for me , YESSSHH! )

It's a boy!
my beloved nephew :)

actually my bro-in-law is not that 'dao' after all.
HE CAN JOKE, COOL!!

hahaha...
sometimes ur perspective of someone does change,
and that's becoz u may not know that person well enough
or that person is simply just not comfortable to be himself/herself in front of you previously

i super envy those people who can be themselves anytime, anywhere.
( of coz in formal occasions, that's another thing la, i mean generally)
They have this aura around them to influence others :
You don't felt any awkwardness and u can just let down ur defenses and be yourself with them feeling comfortable as well even if u just met for the first time.


anyway, i really <3 reunion dinner.
HAPPY CNY 2010!

though alot ppl say it's boring, let's not get influence by them!
these are just signs they are getting older
haha..

eileen mentioned this during DG:

Jesus said "... the truth will set u free" in John 8:32.
Similarly the converse remains true as well.

"Deceptions will keep you in bondage"

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The bondage of being trapped in a situation, thinking that u can never get out of it. Fears of unknown future, deception that God is far away...the list goes on
anything that's untrue of God's character and promises mentioned in the bible can flash thru our minds easily at times when we're feeling really low/let our guard down spiritually. We cannot entertain those thoughts at all- resist playing with fire!

"Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings"

1 Peter 5:8-9

Hangman - Clue : An expression

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ANSWER : STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!!!!!


HELP!

" My grievance with contemporary society is with its decreptitude. There are few towering pleasures to allure me, no beauty to bewitch me, nothing erotic to arouse me, no intellectual circles or positions to challenge or provoke me, no burgeoning philosophies or theologies and no new art to catch my attention or engage my mind, no arousing political, social or religious movements to stimulate or excite me. There are no free man to lead me. No saints to inspire me. No sinners sinful enough to either impress me or share my plight. No one human enough to validate the "going" lifestyle. It's hard to linger in that dull world without being dulled.
I stake the future on the few humble and hearty lovers who seek God passionately in the marvelous, messy world of redeemed and related realities that lie in front of our noses. " -William McNamara
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bored? dull? sian?

Everyone of us needs to be stretched to live at our best, awakened out of dull moral habits, shaken out of petty and trivial busy-work.
Easier to be parasite, easier to relax in the embracing arms of the average. Easier but not better. Easier but not more significant. Easier, but not more fulfilling.
i think i need Spirit of Excellence like seriously but not equivalent to the perfectionist's kind of excellence. Difference b/w the two lies in the motive and reaction when perfection result is not achieved i guess

Acts 9:18
Suddenly something like fish scales fell from Saul's eyes, and he could see again.


Suddenly something like wool was removed from qc's eyes, and she could see again.


the unexplainable joy

iknowGodknow
butigottaPresson

It's like u suddenly discovered the blanket is full of holes and you can no longer hide but have to come out of it and say HI!

God is super good in making me face up to my fears ,
so hai dun even think of SIAM-ing!

Face up to it . be brave. put down any pride. smile

Psalms:
"O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD. ...

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
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“Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.” -Henry Van Dyke

I'm after all human
Withdrawal symptoms hits again.
Maybe this is what they called quarter-life crisis.

Just a FULL day at home can drive me nuts.
Acer is officially down, like finally
sighh

I need my dose of lame-ness & laughter
shall chiong my taiwanese drama: 海派甜心! :)