chin up

Christmas is over
yet it didn't felt like christmas.
haha hear this from so many people

haha me tooooo
but come to think of it , what will make christmas 'christmasy'?

hmmmm...
carols?
greetings?
presents?
snowflakes?
logcakes?
turkey?
frenz?
lightings?
christmas tree?
whole day in church?
family celebrating togt?
ur love one with u?

When u are younger , a simple logcake/family gathering/cheapo present would suffice
As my age catches on,
all these becomes clearer
something deeper is lacking.

Afterall Christmas is still about Christ..
Being so preoccupied with the planning for event and meeting people these days , I forgot to reflect deeper or choose to ignore taking some SOLID time to really think and give thanks and some action steps to take ( not just physical action but the renewal of some thoughts to surrender, hardest part)

A blog post to u:
Thanks for sending Jesus to be the ultimate expression of love so that we know how to love and care for others.
Thanks for giving us the best gift-salvation for anyone that believes when no one deserve it.
Thanks for forgiving me. You know all the dumbest things i do.
Thanks for ur patience & grace. you know i delayed doing things that i know would have pleased you but becoz of self-interest/pride i did not do what i ought to. Yet u are willing to mould me to be the person you hope i will be.
Thanks for ur wonderful plans for me when i know nuts about it. Your faithfulness & promises.
Thanks for all ur teachings, advices and reminders thru the bible, from others and in prayers.
Thanks for ur company- the Holy Spirit to help us in our weakness and to even intercede for us.
Thanks for every single nitty gritty details /SUPER ULTRA BIG plans that i've overlooked/do not have the wisdom to comprehend.
Thanks for being my strength , my refuge, my listening ear.
Thanks for giving me rest.
Thanks for giving me an identity that I'm proud to be
Thanks for being there all the time.
Thanks for all the blessings u have given.
Thanks for all the people u have placed in my life-every single one.
Thanks for loving me when i'm so unloveable.

Thanks for not just of what you've done but who you actually are.

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So tired i can finally have a good rest:)
retreat!

Off to truly asia...